Emptiness. I can never say that I have ever looked at someone and seen a completely empty life, that is, until this year. Two weeks ago, I started my second year of my high school career. I already knew God had a powerful plan for my life and one that would not only bring joy from encouraging others, but deep growth in knowing just how much my Savior, Jesus Christ, means to me. These past two months or so have been the most challenging months I have ever experienced. They have been filled with many lessons that come with hard trials. However, I have never seen God working so consistently than He is right now. You see the only thing I want, the only thing I need is to hold on to the promises my God gives me. Everything else is pointless. Everything else is empty. I asked Jesus to live in my heart when I was ten years old and ever since then I have been pursing a closer relationship with Him. Sadly, I have witnessed a strong and heartbreaking truth these last few weeks. A truth I have known all my life, but have never seen it as vividly taking place in someone else's life. My eyes have been opened to people who are without God and everything about them is empty. There is no depth to their emotions-no purpose for getting up in the morning other than to scrape a red sharpie over a small box on a calendar. They have nothing to live for and it has truly broken my heart. I pray for them- I pray that God may use me as a light to show them what love is and that God does have a purpose for them everyday and to live without Him is like living in a horror film. Because without God leading me everyday, I too would be completely empty. But in Christ I am not who I could be, but who I was created to be. I hope you see the depths of all these truths and catch a glimpse of just how much YOU mean to God.
As I said earlier, these past few months have been incredibly difficult to persevere through. And it is hard to sit in a class and hear someone teach philosophies and theories that don't line up with the Bible, but at the same time, I know I was placed in that class for a reason. God is preparing me and using me when I least expect it. And I want those people to know who is the One who holds this world in His hands. These are just some thoughts that have been on my heart the last couple of days that I wanted to share with you and I encourage you to read some of my other posts.
I don't have all of it figured out, but what I know is You, my God, are real.
Dear Lord, give me a kind and joyful heart so I can share you word and love with those around me. Give me boldness to speak your truth and strength when it's hard too. Thank you for all the trials that have made me stronger. Please, continue to guide my heart with everything on my mind right now. I love you.